30 October 2008

Coming Clean About My Infidelity

I think I might be in the doghouse a bit. It’s a problem I probably wouldn’t normally speak of like this, I mean on a blog and in quite so public a forum, but I’m really in a quandary. You see, my lady found out I was cheating. Well, I don’t know that she “found out” as much as it was an educated guess on her part. Apparently there were some pretty blatant signs I was unknowingly throwing out, and had no idea. Maybe that was for the better, I just hope I can be forgiven.

I guess it started about eight months ago. I started coming home from work and was right out the door as fast as I could change. She would sit, alone and neglected. I’d roll in as the sun fell, take a quick shower, then off to bed. Wake up, off to work, and the day repeats itself. It was still cold outside, not much she and I could do together, so no real thought went into it.

As the weather broke, however, you could see a change. It got nicer out, and she felt increasingly more forsaken. I can’t say why she wasn’t good enough; I guess maybe I just wanted a change. Maybe I just got spoiled at how well I really had it. Maybe I took her for granted. All I knew is my girlfriend was making me believe I was happy, but I know I truly wasn’t.

Fast forward to present day. It was the weekend, and she finally had the courage to call me out. I looked over at her. I could see it as she sat there in front of the window, leaning against the wall. I could see she felt cheep, used, in need of something I clearly had not been giving her for a while. I don’t know, maybe it was just something different that caught my attention. Maybe I just wasn’t sensitive to her needs. Maybe I’m just that typical guy who can’t commit to one woman.

As I sat there and felt bad for neglecting her, and in the same thought I was thinking about a third girl that I saw. I was out for the day, just shopping around and ran into her. Now I have my first love, the girlfriend, and a third that I simply cannot get out of my head. What the heck is wrong with me? Why can't I just be happy with one woman? Can anyone help?

I need to get out on the road bike again, before it’s too cold and too late.

8 comments:

Bluenoser said...

Well phun it starts like most things fun do, by throwing a leg over.

-B

Sher said...

Don,

I'm not sure what to say but would love to chat via phone. Although it is not a good situation, I am impressed that you have taken it public and are looking to resolve this.

call me friend!
oxox.

Cycling Phun said...

Wow...
I thought this would be obvious, clearly it was not. I had one person confront me personally on my err in cheating on my wife, an email asking what happened, and Sher's comment.
Did ANYONE (save Bluenoser?) get that my "lady" I've been cheating on IS my road bike? With my mountain bike...
Hmmmf. I will say, the wife read it, and got it by, like, the third line. Said "[I'm] cheating on the svelte Swedish girl, with a slightly thicker hot Latina number."

Bluenoser said...

Two road bikes, a mountain bike and now an all-rounder/cyclocross bike. What does that make me?

-B

Cycling Phun said...

A whore... a dirty whore...
But a happy one?
*wink*
Further, it makes me jealous...

Hope all is well in the frosty north.

Sher said...

k. to my defense, i am getting sick and haven't slept well in days!. was shocked my the bloggy title and went from there. in reviewing it again, it is clear.

glad the wifey doesn't mind you riding all those other ladies!

Cycling Phun said...

With the weight loss factored in, my wife ENCOURAGES riding THOSE other ladies! ;-P

I'll give you a pass... just this once, on account I like you!

Sher said...

thanks for the pass on my incredibly stupid blonde moment!!!